HOW DID I GET HERE?
I ask myself this question more than I ever have before. At mass. Praying. Reading the Bible. I couldn’t imagine myself being like this a year ago. Even less than that. It’s been like this since February. I still can’t believe that the rosaries on my wall, which I would have worn like jewelry, happened to become what I pray with now.
++++++
HOW DID THIS HAPPEN?
I can’t even tell you. It’s a mystery to me. A year ago, I practiced Wicca. I wanted to create my own coven. I did witchcraft. I performed rituals and spells. I would have thought you crazy if you told me that now, I go to Latin mass, I pray the pre-55 Little Office of the Blessed Virgin Mary in its entirety, I veil at mass. Oh God, I became a TRADITIONALIST too??? What?!
++++++
BUT WHY?
But this. Going to mass. Seeing the Communion wafer, become the real body, blood, soul and divinity of Jesus, in our belief. Seeing God! It feels so right. Especially going to mass. Gregorian chanting. Incense. Latin responses. It’s all so … beautiful. This became my heaven.
++++++
SO WHAT HAPPENED???
I dove deep into Catholicism. I read, I did every prayer, I watched so many video essays. I took it all in. I studied all the ways it could be practiced. I did it all.
++++++
AND WHAT NOW?
After this 6-month journey, I know this place where I’ll remain for the rest of my life. I’ve signed up for catechism classes to learn the faith, and by April, I’ll be baptized, confirmed and receive my confirmation. A year ago, I became a different person. But now, I came home.
